I have recently embarked on a journey to make sense of some of things that happened to me in my past, much like one who struggles to understand mass homicide or war. It makes no sense, but somehow we try to make sense out of it. I’ve been running over events and circumstances in my mind intent on understanding why some prayers were answered and why others were not. Why people who I so needed to love me did not give much or could not give at all. And why I find myself repeatedly coming back to the same place of unwanted conditions being manifested in my life. Why do I keep reaping a sour harvest?
“What is the Truth about Who I Am?”
This has been a question that has knocked on the walls of my thoughts for many months. And as I follow the cord back to the wall and contemplate these all-important questions in silence, I have come to unearth a greater understanding of some of the answers. Here is one of them that I will share with you. It may seem simple at first to the intellectual mind, but when understood and accepted emotionally and sub-consciously, it is extremely profound.
“My past is not who I am; it has only helped me to become who I am.” -Lisa Nichols
Every single thing that has happened to me in my life has been a set-up to success (if viewed in that light). Just as an astringent can burn uncomfortably by pulling up to the surface all that was buried deep inside, so are the circumstances of life. They evoke what is hidden and give us the chance to develop our Spiritual muscles and to become more. Unfortunately, a lot of people (myself included) do not have a proper understanding of this law and are moving through life as if they were bumping around in the dark. It is therefore our right and responsibility to learn the Truth and to reclaim our birthright. We have the right to know who we truly are.
All of the people, places and events that this life inevitably brings can and will arouse the amazing attributes of our beautiful inner being when we make the choice to view those circumstances as an opportunity to grow and learn rather than a chance to play victim to unfortunate events. I played the victim for many years of my life and found myself in some frightening, dysfunctional and far-from-the-truth situations. When I began realizing that this was a pattern, I was able to admit to myself that I was choosing to think and react in certain ways and was thus forming yet another undesirable pathway that I would have to walk down. So it is true that the “sower will eventually have to reap the harvest of what she has sown”. Jesus was very wise, but so were many other teachers that have come and gone. And who knows, maybe you are one of them. What is your truth?
“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” -Confusius